也是你不愿告诉我孤独晚年

醒来时 我哭红了双眼

你的样子 依稀在眼前

间奏

凌晨公交站 刚刚结束我的表演

催促的消息不断 没见你最后一面

是我这一生遗憾

父亲守在床前 红着眼 话语中没有埋怨

能抱上我的孩子 是你最后的心愿

这是我 刚刚经历的画面

这画面今生我不愿再看见

最近我 总以泪洗面

你的样子总浮现在眼前

奶奶我祝愿你在天边不再孤单

At the bus station stood a crowd of people enjoying the coolness and chatting at sunset, and I remember

I was riding on my kids’ bike and you help me hold the steering wheel.

Sitting at the stove, I was blowing out the cooking smoke with all my strength.

How delicious the meals are, with you cooking along with me.

I was stealing my dad’s money, going to the shop outside the school for a toy.

But you close my room door to protect me from my dad’s punishment.

You told stories about my dad’s childhood, while the fireflies lighting up our window.

It puts a smile on my face whenever I dream of you.

This is just a beautiful dream of mine.

And I thank you for being there for me and making my childhood joyful.

Now I’m awake with teary eyes.

As if I have just seen you in front of me.

Standing again at the bus station, looking at the fruit farmers carrying their produce to sell at dawn, and I remember.

You saved every penny for me to go to the university.

You used to walk five and half miles around the mountain in late autumn.

Just to pick and sell fresh red fruits to save money for me.

Just wearing some old cotton shoes and a patched shirt.

Your weak body looks lonely.

You sit in that empty yard remembering your memories from the past.

Old pictures full of the wall plague you into sleepless nights.

You seem to hear grandpa’s calls, without any of us children by your side.

This is a picture in my dream.

And you didn’t tell me you were felling lonely towards the end of your life.

Now I’m awake with my red eyes filled with tears.

As if I have just seen you in front of me.

Standing again at the bus station after my music show in late night, and I regret.

I failed to see you for the last time before you were no more, although I got endless urgent calls.

That becomes a regret of my whole life.

My dad sits beside you as you go, with his red eyes filled with tears but with no complaints against me.

And your last wish was just to hold my child in your arms.

I see all this in front of my eyes now.

But I would not like to see any more in the rest of my life.

Recently I have been drowning in tears.

As I see you in front of me.

My dearest grandma I wish you are no longer lonely in heaven.